wow its been 3 years.It feels longer.I wish you could have realised how truelly special you were. what I respect the most is that you tried,you apologised,you knew,and you tried to give up the drinking,and in all fareness you were always honest in that last couple of years. I am sorry you had to go so soon,I hope it happened so fast that you didn't feel any pain.I feel you suffered enough pain in your heart when you were suffering. I have been angry with you at times.But I do love you,I have always loved you.knowing I cant see you or hug you again,feels really strange even still.